I think I’ve had Grace all wrong.
I used to relate to grace in the only way I knew how: as a strings-attached currency that is exchanged between an angry person and the person who’s screwed up. I thought grace was when you deserved to be kicked, punched and left emotionally bloodied, but for some reason you were spared from the beating this time.
I thought grace worked like this because, for me, grace is tangled up in the Christian notion that there is a God who deserves to punish humans, and that as a human, I am innately flawed, sinful and rotten.
Within this natural order of things that cannot be questioned, God (the creator of all things) is rightly angry at me for being created as a flawed, sinful, rotten woman. And therefore it’s only natural that destruction and punishment are waiting for me and anyone who isn’t precisely obedient to God.
Based on all my experiences with Christianity, grace was nothing more than God showing restraint against a certain innate, overpowering rage that could obliterate us at any moment.
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